Today I'm.....

Today I'm rejoicing in the Lord's faithfulness in my life. These last 3 months I've felt like a completely different person, than 6 months ago. When my doctor told me she could no longer help me, I became a different person...I got so mad at the Lord and didn't really care about anything except my photography business and Kaz. I pulled away from a lot of people(emotionally), gained a good amount of weight, and simply gave up. I'm thankful that the Lord drew me back to HIM.

Kaz and I have been praying for some really big things in our life(I'll share soon-I promise). I woke up this morning WITH SO MUCH EXCITMENT because I honestly feel like the Lord is doing bigger things right now than I see. I'm anticipating his blessings...and waiting to see how he works. During the "darker" stages of this journey, Kaz has stayed faithful to me and faithful in praying for me. He's lead our family as best he could, and today I want to thank him for something that he's prayed that has just now hit home with me....
This whole time at the end of all of his prayers, he's thanked the Lord for specifically carrying out those big prayer request. Example: Even though for a long time I didn't believe we would have a family, he did...he always thanks the Lord for our child(children) and prays specifically for them...For awhile that always bothered me because I didn't understand why he thought we would have children. I didn't understand why he didn't feel the same way I did, and didn't hurt like I did. BUT in reality he does hurt, and he doesn't understand why we've gone through what we have, but he still has HOPE! He still has been trusting and walking by faith! So today I'm thankful....and I'm thanking the Lord for things I can't yet see.

2 things I'm sure of....During this time the Lord has strengthened both of us, and the Lord has blessed us. So with that, we are anxiously anticipating and waiting on the Lord and His perfect plan. We are rejoicing!

Isaiah 40:31
But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings as eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.

Psalm 30:11-12
O Lord...
YOU turned my wailing into dancing...
You removed my sackcloth and clothed me with JOY.....
that my heart may sing to you and not be silent...
O Lord my God, I will give YOU THANKS, FOREVER....