Monday, February 22, 2010

Confession...

I have to confess….
Saturday night, I woke up around 3am. Normally when I wake up in the middle of the night, I will grab my phone[which is on the night stand beside me] and look at my email and facebook…[this is another story:)] So Saturday night, 3am I started connecting to my social media and I read a friends blog which talked about the things they have done craft wise for their children. This isn’t the first time, I’ve gotten down about this but it definitely made me think through things again…

Here’s the situation…I’m VERY VERY busy. The Lord has blessed us tremendously right now…I’m working a full time accountant job at a church PLUS doing photography full time AND have been doing this since May! It’s very very tiring AND THERE are SO MANY other things that I want to do[like sewing, crafts, spending more time with Kaz, etc] BUT I can’t. I don’t have the time….Back in December, Kaz asked what I wanted for Christmas. I REALLY wanted a sewing machine because I WANTED to learn how to sew…So he got the sewing machine BUT the more I thought about it I couldn’t use it. I didn’t have the time…So we took it back. SEE my problem is I WANT to do so many things BUT I haven’t been called to those things. The Lord has blessed me and called me to photography and in order for me to continually get better I have to learn and constantly study it….If I had it my way, I would be able to do all the things I want to do and be good at all of them BUT life’s not like that….Kaz has to remind me of this….Right now, it’s photography….This is what the Lord has entrusted me to do…..

So my confession….I stayed awake for an hour and a half getting upset about this. I REALLY want to learn how to sew and do other cool things like that BUT right NOW I can’t….I got upset about how little time I have right now for “extra activities”…..BUT I know where the Lord has us right now is for a season and He is blessing us with things we can’t yet see…. It reminded me of the parable of the talents[Matthew 25:13-20].

Are you ever like this?

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9 comments:

Sabrina said...

I know exactly what you mean!!! There are so many things I want to do and new things I want to learn. I wish there were more hours in the day or more of me to go around. It's a fine line and hard to balance.

You're doing a great job with your photography. As time allows it you will learn new things...you're such a fast learner!

carissa @ lowercase letters said...

i know there will be a point in your life when you can sew! it might be when you and kaz are retired, but hey, i'm sure it will happen : )! you seriously are so so busy!!! i can't wait for you to have more time for yourself one day.

p.s. - you do so well with EVERYTHING you set your mind to!

Katie said...

Amy, you're not alone. ; ) I often wish I had 48 hours in a day or at least I could be two people. It's just not going to happen. Ha!

I love what you said about the LORD has you here in this season of life. So true. He knows right where you are and how busy you are each day. Take a deep breathe, friend.

Love your family picture, too.

Maria Lane said...

I know what ya mean!! we stay so busy we cant seem to fit it all in.......all the things we want to do....but YOU can do anything you put your mind to.......Maybe you could take a sewing class on the weekends........or something, and then set date nights so you will have more time with k. We all need our date nights.......Have a great Monday!!!!

Maria Lane said...

left you something at my blog! Glad you are a new follower!

Abby said...

Yes! I do know. Actually I've really wanted to take up photography. I hate my point and shoot and really wanted a nice canon rebel for Christmas. Needless to say, I didn't get it. Interesting how we see other people do something well and we want to do it too!

On another note, this is just too funny. After reading your blog and seeing so many things in common the other day, I read todays post and laughed out loud... literally! I work in the finance department at my church doing accounts receivable and contribution coordinating. And I sew but I want to learn photography. Weird... :) So glad I stumbled across your blog! I love making new blog friends!

Lesli said...

Yes, I think we all can relate.. there is just not enough hours in the day!! I would LOVE to learn how to sew too..but like you, I barely have enough time to get the things done I NEED to get done! I would also love to learn more about photography! My husband bought me a SONY SLR for christmas last year and I am slowy getting differnent lens..etc.. but still I get disappointed because I wish I Knew MORE! While speaking of photography, can you suggest an editing program? Has to be simple!

Kara said...

This was totally our lesson this morning at my Beth Moore Bible Study. You are doing the right thing. You are listening to the Lord. He will honor you for that! Thanks for checking out my blog. I sent you an email.

Faith said...

I can completely relate. I miss so badly the time that I used to have doing "fun" stuff like sewing and creating. Since taking a full time job last May I have hardly worked on any projects at all and it makes me sad.

Trusting with you that we are just going through a season and I look forward to what God has in store next!