Tuesday, January 04, 2011

the waiting stages of adoption...

I haven’t written much about our adoption process because to be honest not a lot has happened....In the waiting stages it’s just that-waiting to hear someone has chosen you. Kaz and I both have been doing really good lately...waiting is hard, don’t get me wrong BUT looking back I can honestly say that the Lord knew what He was doing! Why did I ever doubt? I begged him to give us a baby by Christmas...I wanted to start our family so badly BUT He knew what was best. Looking back there would have been no way that we could have made it! I didn’t realize until this week HOW busy 2010 was for me. I worked a 40 hour job every week on TOP of photography...I shot 48 weddings last year....had tons of family, children, newborn sessions...traveled to Nashville, Georgia, North Carolina, New York, Tennessee, Jamaica, Illinois and all over SC for various photography sessions. On top of all of that I had to edit all those pictures, continue promoting my business, be a wife, see friends and family, etc. Do you get the point? I was slammed! 
I’m thankful the Lord hasn’t given us a baby yet for so many reasons...One we both needed rest from 2010. It was a fast paced, challenging year...We needed more time to our ourselves. We have grown so much in our marriage over this last year....
I still want a baby more than anything that I’ve ever wanted in my life...BUT I’m at a place where I’m trusting the Lord 100% with our future. Do I get sad? Sure, all the time. I know the Lord has placed us where we are to grow our faith, our marriage, and our testimony to others. He has blessed us more than we will ever realize...He continually pours down His blessings and encourages us daily. He continues to put people in our life for support...He is carrying us daily...HE IS in CONTROL. HE HAS a perfect PLAN...HE IS GOOD....HE WILL PROVIDE....HE IS OUR GOD!

"The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; Blessed be the name of the Lord!"-Job 1:21

8 comments:

Melissa's Thoughts said...

Great attitude and like my Nanny used to say, it's when you are comfortable where you are that God will hit you up side the head with something new....Here's to something new. :)

Rebekah said...

Hope you're really ready for life to come to a screeching halt, because when I have been 101% surrendered to God is when things happen - and sometimes fast! :D It's amazing how much we can do without children and how much they change your life and slow you down.

mrsashcake said...

I love you attitude.. it is fabulous. I could stand to have such a fabulous attitude like that with some things in my life too :) thanks for the reminder

Jemsmom said...

What a wonderful spirit you have! God will do it all when the time is right! Keeping hanging in there!

Ashley said...

The waiting sucks but we know that God is working out all the details. Here's to huge blessings in 2011~

BARBIE said...

You truly have a wonderful outlook. Praying your dreams of adoption are fulfilled soon!

talbed said...

The lord is good and he will provide. His will and his time. You got the right attitude baby
I love you, Pop

Cary Dale Taylor said...

I appreciate you always being so honest when you talk about the struggles of the waiting stage you are in. I am 28 and single and find myself struggling with waiting. I know that God always gets the timing just right. So here's to waiting!!! :) You are in my prayers.