I haven’t written much about our adoption process because to be honest not a lot has happened....In the waiting stages it’s just that-waiting to hear someone has chosen you. Kaz and I both have been doing really good lately...waiting is hard, don’t get me wrong BUT looking back I can honestly say that the Lord knew what He was doing! Why did I ever doubt? I begged him to give us a baby by Christmas...I wanted to start our family so badly BUT He knew what was best. Looking back there would have been no way that we could have made it! I didn’t realize until this week HOW busy 2010 was for me. I worked a 40 hour job every week on TOP of photography...I shot 48 weddings last year....had tons of family, children, newborn sessions...traveled to Nashville, Georgia, North Carolina, New York, Tennessee, Jamaica, Illinois and all over SC for various photography sessions. On top of all of that I had to edit all those pictures, continue promoting my business, be a wife, see friends and family, etc. Do you get the point? I was slammed!
I’m thankful the Lord hasn’t given us a baby yet for so many reasons...One we both needed rest from 2010. It was a fast paced, challenging year...We needed more time to our ourselves. We have grown so much in our marriage over this last year....
I still want a baby more than anything that I’ve ever wanted in my life...BUT I’m at a place where I’m trusting the Lord 100% with our future. Do I get sad? Sure, all the time. I know the Lord has placed us where we are to grow our faith, our marriage, and our testimony to others. He has blessed us more than we will ever realize...He continually pours down His blessings and encourages us daily. He continues to put people in our life for support...He is carrying us daily...HE IS in CONTROL. HE HAS a perfect PLAN...HE IS GOOD....HE WILL PROVIDE....HE IS OUR GOD!
"The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; Blessed be the name of the Lord!"-Job 1:21