Sunday, February 13, 2011

a canceled party & adoption update....

Kaz and I found out back in November that a birth mom had selected us! She is due in June...The last 3 months have been a whirlwind of emotions...Everything seemed to be working out perfectly! We were able to go with her to all of her doctors appointments...We heard the babies heartbeat for the first time with her, and this past Wed we found out the gender of the baby...a little boy. We have kept this a secret for several reasons...One being the birth mom could change her mind at any time..
After each appointment, Liz and Todd have met us for lunch to hear all the details and celebrate...

For a few weeks, I have had planned a gender reveal party for our family and close friends. It has been such an exciting time...
Wed night after the appointment, Kaz and I both started feeling like something was wrong....something didn't seem right. On Thursday and Friday, we found out the birth mom is no longer sure if she wishes to continue down the adoption path. We will be going back on the waiting list tomorrow...
It's been a sad weekend...I'm not going to lie. BUT we both have a peace from the Lord that this is His plan. We felt called down the path with this birth mom and BOTH said the day we got the phone call that if she did change her mind, then it was a step that the Lord wanted us to go through to bring us closer to our baby. We have invested a lot of our heart, emotions, time, etc with the birth mom over the last few months and we have truly enjoyed getting to know her...It's sad, but we know the Lord has a plan. We ARE GOING TO FIGHT to trust that this is a part of it.
The party would have been incredible...I had tons of candy! I had planned to have a pink and blue table...I was very proud of the decorations so I wanted to post just a few pictures...


Keep praying for us...We are both excited but scared at the same time...

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you, and NOT to harm you. Plans to give you HOPE and a future.



16 comments:

A Love Worth Waiting For.... said...

Amy-

I am so sorry to hear this. My husband and I know all to well what you and your husband are going through!

Praying for you friend!

Faith said...

Amy, so sorry about this setback. Praying for you both, that you would continue to sense His peace and clear direction for the future of your family.

Ashley said...

Wow, I hate to hear this! You have such a great attitude about it. Our agency waits until the expectant mom is 7-8 months along before showing her the profile books for this very reason. Praying God brings you together with your baby so soon!

"Are These Kids All Yours?" said...

I am so sorry for you loss.....having lost ourselves....it is soo very hard.
Thank you for sharing your photos- looks like you had a great party planned. Praying for support of God to surround you in this time.
PRAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

linds said...

Praying for you! My husband and I just went through the same thing back in November. We were matched with a birth mom and went all the way up until the day that she had her and changed her mind. We were sooo heartbroken! This is something that I kept saying over and over to myself during that time .. "I have a choice. And I choose to trust. I choose to love. And I choose to hope". I had to keep reminding myself that even though I didn't uderstand and even though my heart hurt more than I thought I could bare ... that God still had this. Once we let go God brought another birth mother into our lives just a month after we lost our first match. He's due any day and we are so ready to get off this roller coaster ride! praying so hard that you get your next match soon and don't have to wait anymore!

elizabeth said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you Kaz and Amy. I know God has a good plan in all of this.

MomMom said...

Amy, I am so sorry to hear this but God has just the baby chosen for you and Kaz. It still could be this one, but it very well may be another baby. Our son and daughter-in-law thought their adoption had fallen through when, in fact, the family changed their mind again and now that baby is our almost 13 year old granddaughter whom we love dearly. As I look back, I see how God's hand was in the entire process. He has chosen a baby for you and He will let you know at just the perfect time who that baby is. Hang on to all of your party ideas because you will have many reasons to party when you get that little one!!

J said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how much this can hurt and it is okay to grieve, but I'm so glad you are excited for the future because God has a plan for you!!

Allyson said...

Praying for you and Kaz! I know God has great things in store for you!

J said...

Oh I'm so so sorry Amy. Thinking of you both xo

BARBIE said...

Oh Amy, I am sorry to hear this news. I will be praying for you and your husband, that God's plan would be revealed and that He will bring you His perfect peace.

Monica said...

Amy, my heart aches for you and Kaz! We will continue to lift you up in prayer!

ASHELY said...

Amy, I am so excited for you! What a blessing.

Amy said...

WoW! Praying for you and Kaz. Remeber that God goes before us in every circumstance and his plan is perfect!

Rebecca Jo said...

Wow... what a tough road you all are on... continuing to pray for you & the baby that will be in your life

Danielle said...

I am so sorry! I know how hard waiting can be, sometimes it seems impossible! You have a great attitude, and it seems as though trust, and faith have become your default....which will be important once you finally get that little one into your arms! Praying for you!!!!!