We know that all things work together for good to those who love God . . .
I have been convicted lately of my “lack of faith and prayer”. The last month I’ve been going through a really hard time…I have had ZERO motivation except for photography. The cause could be several things, but I just have not wanted to do one thing. In the afternoons, if I’m not working I just sit on the couch. If I go to a store, I feel like I just wander around looking at who knows what…. I have been unbelievably tired all the time….I have been sleeping A LOT….
Something [I know it was the Lord] changed my heart on Friday. It’s like I’m a completely different person than I have been this last month. I’m motivated, NOT tired, full of energy, etc. I can’t explain it on my own but it’s been huge! I’m so thankful…
BUT also, the Lord has really answered a lot of our prayers in the last month. There have been so many BIG request we have been praying since January. Slowly, in His timing He has been answering them. This morning I got one of the best emails I could have ever seen! I’m not going to go into detail BUT it’s HUGE for our family! No, it’s not with the adoption…BUT even in that I’m thankful. You see, I told Kaz about 2 weeks ago that I really wanted to believe that the Lord was good and faithful REGARDLESS of if we got a baby. I’ve been viewing Him through “baby goggles” and limiting Him to only that one prayer. I haven’t prayed about many other things except getting a baby, AND somewhere along the way I started believing He was ONLY faithful and good IF He gave us a baby. HOW WRONG WAS I?
So today, I’m thankful and I want to believe and know with all of my heart that HE does have a plan, HE is in control, HE is good AND faithful regardless of when and how we get a baby.